So Random

Hello Everyone,

So I just feel like rambling a little bit before I go to bed. For some reason my mind works best at 1 something in the morning. Anyways, today it was raining which is kind of appalling because it's summer. So I pretty much just stayed in the house and did nothing. I honestly am going stir crazy because my mind needs to be challenged constantly. I can't just sit and do nothing. I need to learn something. But now that the spring semester is over. I am just BORED!! When I was in college I was working my brain 24/7 to the point of emotional/mental breakdown. It's not as bad as it seems though. I like working under constant stress for some strange reason. This reminds of astrology. I am a Virgo. And it scares me to point out that I fit every characteristic under Virgos. Now I am not one who believes in horoscopes, but it really scares me sometimes.
Here are some of the characteristics of Virgos:

Modest and shy
Meticulous and reliable
Practical and diligent
Intelligent and analytical (okay the whole analytical thing is true to some extent. In my college class I couldn't write an essay that included analysis. I think at one point my English prof was fed up with my college essays. However, I do analyze every single aspect of my life)

On the dark side....

Fussy and a worrier
Overcritical and harsh
Perfectionist and conservative

It's so true!!

This is probably why I can never date. Because I have high expectations of men. I mean it's good to have standards but mine are over the top that I am too embarrassed to write it out.

** on a side note: I learned that the word 'hooray' is actually spelled horay! For the past 12 years I have been spelling the word wrong. Even the computer is telling me that horay is spelled wrong when it reality it's spelled correctly.

Back to dating. During my 19 years of life I have only been asked out twice and declined both times. I don't feel guilty about it because I have my morals and obviously my high standards. To be honest, I just don't have time to date. I'm far too busy with school, work and family. Right now those are my top priorities. I didn't even include friends in that micro list.

So I am listening to Hilary Duff's song Why Not and all I can say to myself is where the hell did my childhood go? It's come to the point where I realized that life moves way too fast. I need to cherish everyday as if I were to die tomorrow. Recently, I started to contemplate writing a letter (old school right?) to a friend I lost contact with months ago. I want to relive memories that I had with her. I have lost so many people during my short life that I refuse to lose any more people. Even though facebook has made me stay in contact with my past it's not the same as to hanging out with them. I rather not have to cyber socially with them. I would much rather go out for coffee and chat. In regards to facebook, not everyone has a facebook account. Anyways, back to my friend. We would hang out all the time. The only memories I  have of her are the foolish videos when we were immature and pictures. I think that writing the letter makes it much more personal. There are just so many people I want to connect with: childhood friends, elementary/jr high/high school teachers, old buddies, professors, distant family members, and so on and so forth. I have faith though, the world really is small and hopefully I will have the chance to run into them...some day.

I'm off to bed. My bff Kali is texting me and I haven't talked to her in a while.
Good Night!!

<3 Jackie